Jinxy!

Do you believe in jinx?

I happen to be a (very) superstitious person, i.e., 

1.
Left eyelid is twitching, something bad's about to happen. & vice versa.
2.
Talk about how clear and fair my skin is recently, the next morning I'll wake up with a zit on my nose.
3.
Spilled salt? That's bad luck!
etc. 

Superstition is not bound by religion by the way, I am not religious, but superstitious? Guilty as charged. 

And you know one of the famous chinese 'superstition' is jinxing. 

Jinx is like, saying something good that'll happen in the future, and it will jinx it and make it not happen. 

So all this grandmother story is actually leading to what I actually want to talk about, my current boyfriend, C. 

So C is my second boyfriend, so I can only compare it to my previous one. I dated my ex for 3 years, since 17 (I think?), it ended rather uglily. So well it took me some time to recover and not long later i went to study at States. In a month studying there, *poof* here comes C. 

Frankly things happened so fast that I am disappointed with myself. It is a huge sea with plenty of fishes, with an attractive bait like me I could've fished a bucketful then pick the biggest and juiciest one as my main course right? Why do I have to settle for the first one, when I can potentially fish more, and maybe get a bigger/better fish? 

So anyway I kept meaning to break up with him in the first few weeks of the relationship, but in the end I did not cause I didn't had the heart to. He is sweet and kind hearted, pampering me with gifts and showering me with love. I am not even exaggerating. If I had to show examples girls might throw rocks at me for rubbing it in their faces. Maybe they already are. 

Days pass and I realize that this relationship happened very fast, true, BUT, he is maybe one of the best fish I'll ever catch. 

Note, before you all start hating on me and think I am immature and blinded by love. I digress (as much as I am psychologically able to). C is not my first love, my ex did shit to me that really hurt me (think cheating), and there is not a day that I don't remind myself that people are not that they look like, there's not a night where I tell myself to calm the fuck down.


I have seen people gushing (tweeting) about their boyfriend and how fucking in love she is. & I always think it's a bunch of bullshit, and they will break up. Sorry. You're fucking 20 and dating since 19, are you likely to get married? Ummmm, no? He's cheating? Yeap, no surprise there. Yeah maybe I am jaded, but that's the reality.


See? I am fully aware of 'reality'. I am NOT blinded. I am NOT stupid. Right. Right?


Ok so continuing my story of wonderful C. He has traits that I always wanted, he has his annoying bits too. But I am fine with it. Not fine with his diet though, too much Coke, way to much Coke. I rarely argue with him, cause I learnt to tolerate and understand (Thanks Mr. Ex). We are both now maintaining a pretty blissful LDR, we both have our own life and own circle of friends. We both Skype at night cause we both want to, and neither of us are forced/obliged to.


How is this possible? It sounds perfect, to me at least. I don't know what is he (truly) thinking, he says he feel the same way but who knows. Unrealistically pessimist aside, he means it. One does not simply fly to another country to do nothing but to spend time with a girl.


So. There is only one explanation to this perfection, wait, two actually.

The first one would be, it's just 5 months wait and see, also it's the hormones.

The second one, would be the one? **

** I know, cheesy to the max. How can I say 'the one'? How can I even use that word. I never, never used it. Ever. & now I did.




So back to the jinxing theory, by saying all that I just said, I probably have just jinxed whatever good fortune I had with him.


BUT BUT BUT,
According to the law of attraction, gratitude is the way to go. I am undeniably thankful that he is in my life right now. Such a blessing. Right here right now, I feel very very lucky.

& also, I can't help but think of having a loving and long relationship with him. So that is good thought that attracts good things right?

So yeah.

Let's see how this unfold.





xoxo,
Princess Peaches



Edit,
I realized I never finish my fishing theory. So far, I think he might be one of the biggest fish I would be able to ever catch. (;

Yeah throw rocks at me bitches.